i swear i’m not normal. i can’t do things normally and i can’t think normally and i most definitely can’t live normally.
i want to be alone and i want to have everything personal and i want to be free and independent and be able to live for myself, yet i want to be with you more then i ever want to be with myself.
but sometimes i hate you for no reason and i’m realizing the reason is because you make me feel like im losing myself to you, and i don’t want to lose myself. but i want to be with you more then anything. but with limitations. i want to live a life of you and me, but i want to be able to do me, and i want you to be able to do you, without either of us HAVING to get involved in it. i don’t want to be with you and your friends, i want to be with my friends, and i want to be with you. my best friend tells me that makes me bad girlfriend material, but i honestly just think its my personal preference in how two people in love can act with eachother.
i dont HAVE to hang out with your friends if i don’t want to, i mean, me and my friends we’re easy going free spirited people who live life based on fun and try not to judge people. plus we’re a little weird :) you guys, well… it just doesn’t ever feel right.
so whatever, i’m just not down to be super involved in my guy’s personal life. but i wanna be a big part of his life. that makes sense… right?
